I feel the part of the pain she's feeling.
The past, bad shit happening that seems like it's reinforcing my doubts, refusal to accept what good people see in me, unable to move forward... It's so tiring.
Come on, we gotta get better! If it looks ugly, just look ahead and plough on.

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