Please bear in mind
I don't have the right to be angst because of my past, but anger has become a part of me already.
This seems twisted but with each life-changing event i've experienced, i taught myself to toughen up. Toughening up literally meant being fiercer - grit teeth, clench fist - cementing the exterior.
My extremely helpful paternal family played a huge role in my considerably good up-bringing. They taught me morality, but no one really knew how to be the shrink. So i grew up solving my own (mostly emotional) problems - it was good for the most part because i learnt independence. But that anger part, it largely helped me through but it wasn't such a good idea because i get pissed off so easily now.
That's my problem & i've got the solution: forgiveness is the answer to everything. Just let the anchor go. I will settle for internal peace. Forgiving doesn't have to be pretending to make up, be all smiles or talk the awkwardness away. I want to start forgiving within myself, wholeheartedly, then i believe the rest of the make up will follow naturally. I wondered, however, what if the other party refuses to partake in the "poison-purge"? Then there will be nothing i can do about them (I can't make their business mine), i will just have to be content in my sole cleanse.
All these seems so easy to say but i'll take baby steps. After all,
When you know better, you do better - Maya Angelou.
This seems twisted but with each life-changing event i've experienced, i taught myself to toughen up. Toughening up literally meant being fiercer - grit teeth, clench fist - cementing the exterior.
My extremely helpful paternal family played a huge role in my considerably good up-bringing. They taught me morality, but no one really knew how to be the shrink. So i grew up solving my own (mostly emotional) problems - it was good for the most part because i learnt independence. But that anger part, it largely helped me through but it wasn't such a good idea because i get pissed off so easily now.
That's my problem & i've got the solution: forgiveness is the answer to everything. Just let the anchor go. I will settle for internal peace. Forgiving doesn't have to be pretending to make up, be all smiles or talk the awkwardness away. I want to start forgiving within myself, wholeheartedly, then i believe the rest of the make up will follow naturally. I wondered, however, what if the other party refuses to partake in the "poison-purge"? Then there will be nothing i can do about them (I can't make their business mine), i will just have to be content in my sole cleanse.
All these seems so easy to say but i'll take baby steps. After all,
When you know better, you do better - Maya Angelou.
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